Thursday, February 28, 2013

Worn...

...a word that describes me perfectly right now....

I love the new Tenth Avenue North song with the same name...it's words are just how I feel...

I'm tired, I'm worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I've made mistakes
I've let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world
And I know that You can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

I have felt this way for years honestly...it's why I don't blog much anymore...I am just worn out at the end of each day.  But, we have taken "worn" to a whole new level lately.  I have really struggled post-Logan.  Heck, I actually think I started to struggle when I first found out I was pg with Logan.  Such a roller coaster pregnancy, a roller coaster early birth and then I just jumped right back into our normal roller coaster lives...I never got to catch my breath.  I feel I closed my eyes in May and opened them up at the end of February...the in-between is a blurr.  It such a hard thing to explain but it's almost like I've been in a fog for this long.  I think I am finally coming out of it...I pray I am.  I guess being "worn" can do this?  I don't know.  I just long for rest.  Don't get me wrong, I love this life I've been blessed with...I prayed for this life a decade ago and it seemed very unattainable.  Now what seems like the blink of an eye, I have all that I begged God for back then. I feel guilty feeling worn and saying so.  But, I am...

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Happy V-day! :)


Happy Day of Love from the "Fab 5" Steg Kids :)  Hope it's been a day full of lovin' for all our family and friends!  Our poor lil' man cried for most of his 1st v-day.  Not sure what's going on, but he puked or pooped almost all day long. Can't get more loving than that! :)  We are hoping he settles down soon and we can all head to bed.  Even through the puking and pooping though, this mama is just plain thankful to have 5 healthy kids and to be so tired from them :)  Love ya'll!

(special thanks to my sis-in-law for making all the kiddos darling, personalized shirts for this special holiday...love them!) 

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Our Sweet New Boy--video

If you want to see a sweet video of pics from our newborn photo session about 5 weeks ago, check this out.  I love our photographer and love the music she used (which brings tears to my eyes).  She did a great job and I don't know how I'm going to pick only a few pics :)