Thursday, December 22, 2016
Letting holiday stuff go
Well, it's late and we leave in 6 hours for FL, so I should be sleeping...but had to just say that I feel a little down tonight. I probably shouldn't be so hard on myself, but the amount of stuff I did not tackle this holiday season became very apparent tonight. I think only 1/4 of my holiday decor is out. Never did outside lights. Never had the kids put up their trees. Never did holiday baking. Never finished decorating the sunroom tree (half-popcorned). Didn't really take any holiday pics, which I like to do. Never did our church advent calendar, which I really wanted to do (about helping others each day). Didn't get Christmas gifts for many people that I wanted to (still shopping today and not done). And I haven't thought a lick about my little boy's bday which is 2 days after Christmas. I guess none of this really matters overall, but it is the first time I have never forced myself to do it. I am sorta mad I didn't have my mom help me more when she was here, but I just wasn't feeling up to it then. Oh and the reality of how far behind was glaringly apparent when I went through my fridge tonight. I think I had 2 dozen containers of old food (some of it very moldy)...and some of it was from early November. Good grief. I need to start having more down time in my New Year so I can get the things I want/need to get done. I love being a busy mom and being involved...but a part of me needs a year of peace to get my act together at home. Anyway...this is a post for another time, I guess. And I suppose I need to not focus on the things I didn't accomplish, but on the things I did. And I need to realize I can't do it all.