Phew...ok, so that last post was a long time coming for me...I'm not good at keeping secrets and to know I was pg for a week or so and have to come up with other things to blog about...well, it was torturous....but, I guess, it was necessary too...as I needed about a week to call the necessary people and "break the news" :)
But, I must say that personally I needed some time to process Baby Stegs #4. Not that we aren't thrilled by the prospect of another beautiful child...it's just that we weren't expecting that conception would be such an easy thing for us. Ok, so take a trip down memory lane with me if you will.....let's rewind to 1999...shortly before our 1st anniversary we find out we are expecting Baby Stegs #1 (Hailey)...first month off pill (due to issues)...young, newly married, but very excited....ok...Mar. 2002...Kev finally has a job after a year of unemployment...we decided it's time to give Hailey a sibling...easier said than done...15 mos later we have to resort to IUI...finally success with that in Aug. 2003 and out pops babe #2 Shelby...11 mos into her life I am unexpectedly pg with #3 (Dylan)...and now it's the present and I go off the pill in Dec. due to some health issues and hormone problems...and, yep...you guessed it...preggers again :) All right...so that was kind of a long drawn out process...but I felt like it needed to be said...do you see how confused I might be by all this. I mean, it's mind-boggling to me to go from super-fertility to infertility and back to double super fertility. Mind you, I'm not complaining nor questioning God's plan...I'm just confused as to how that all has worked and it has taken some time to process (and I'm still not done processing it). Not that I thought I was immune to pregnancy after 18 mos of infertility...but I guess I really didn't expect babies to fall in my lap like this :)....ok, that has been my thought process over the last week or so...among other things...
So....this is how it all came about....well, I guess we know how me being pg came about so we won't go into that :)....but this is the jest of it. You all know I've been having some "health issues" for the last half of 2007. Nothing serious, mind you, just hormonal/bleeding issues due to a low dose prog. pill (which was necessary due to a tumor on my liver). Things got so bad in November and I was an emotional basket case that Kev and I decided it was time to do away with "extra hormones" (the pill)...ok...so around the beginning of Dec the pills went in the trash (or rather just didn't get picked up from the pharmacy)...so, it's the holidays...I go about my business...I'm a little emotional around Christmas (I think I even cried on the phone to my in-laws...maybe that should have tuned me into a bun in the oven since I am not a crier?)....so, yes, I was pg before Christmas....yes, I was pg in FL and during our Disney trip (so much for me NOT being pg this time around....I think I jinxes myself last year when I made that comment! :)). No wonder I was so tired at Disney....and no wonder that Mission Space ride had my clutching a barf bag. Let's just say this baby must have been firmly implanted in my uterus after some of those rockin' roller coasters...and I have no doubt that this baby will pop out having a need for speed due to my coaster rampage! Shame on me! I really had no thoughts of being pg as I confidently passed those warning signs that said "danger, not appropriate for pregnant woman". Craziness. And to be honest, when I found out I was pg my roller coaster days at Disney were the first to come to mind and I felt a mountain of guilt over any damage I may have done to our baby...I still am nervous about that so please keep that worry of mine in prayer......
Alrighty...so, yes, I was pg at Disney....pg when we got home....and then the days just turned to weeks and all of a sudden last weekend I thought, "hmmm....I really should have gotten a period by now"...but some spotting that weekend and before just kind of solidified my thought that my period was on the way soon....and probably this has just been an "off cycle" due to my pills, etc. Ok....so the weekend goes by. I get that funny uterine cramping...not the period kind, but the baby kind...I guess after 3 kids I know that cramping. Weird. I tried to put it out of my mind...then there was my new "heat factor"...which makes me feel like I'm going through menopause every night. Ok, so I was waking up in a hot sweats...even Kev told me I was hot and this is coming from the king of heat. Weird. Ok...still I was in denial. So the weekend has gone by and I've convinced myself that if I don't have my period by next weekend that I'd take a test. Ok...easy enough...I'm a patient person and can wait. Well, then I start to obsess about it...and worry about it...and then lo and behold I read my friend, Amanda's, blog last Monday and she's pg and due like the same time I could be due...ok, so that was my sign. I tore through our closet of medical supplies and came up with an old, old pregnancy test (from when we were trying for Shelby)...I think all I had to do was breath on it and sure enough...it came back positive (see pic below :))...hmmm....ok, so I still was in denial and since it was a very old/expired test I decided to show Kev that night and see what his thoughts were....so that's what I did....
I'll admit I was nervous about the "dad's"reaction. Not that he'd be upset or anything cuz he helped "cause" this, but Kev has always admitted that he was a "two child" guy. Now that doesn't mean that he doesn't love Dylan or this new baby or that he didn't want more kids...but just that when we had two he was fine with us being done. I, on the otherhand, always saw myself with 4 kids and I guess when we had three I figured that was a good compromise for Kev and I :) Yes, we are all about compromise! :) Ok...so joking aside. I didn't know how Kev would take the news. So, I waited til we'd put the kids to bed that night and he was sitting here at the computer putting our Disney pics online :) I grabbed the pee stick and tossed it in front of him. I think his reaction was "what does this mean?"....and I think I said "what do you think it means?"...and then he simply said "COOL!" :) Hmmm....good response, babe! :) I was happy with that...and I think that just that simple response told me it was going to all be ok :) Of course being the "pee stick doubter" that he's always been...we decided it was best to go get a blood test the next day...so that's what I did (and have always done...I mean, who can really believe that peeing on a stick can tell you your life is gonna change again :)). I'm a doubter, I guess. So, this was last Tuesday...HCG test done at lab. We waited that agonizing wait til Wed. afternoon and then I called and got the results. Of course they couldn't find them so I had to wait til the end of the day...but sure enough...PG with a capital P...HCG 2773...about 6 weeks pg and looking good. Hmmm...ok, so it started to sink in and I called Kev to tell him at work. There was discussion about waiting to tell people...but to be honest I'm horrible at that....some of you out there are mighty good at keeping you bun in the oven a surprise til like month 4...but I can't do that since I get so sick along they way. Ok...I decided it was a bad idea to not tell my family especially...I talk to my mom almost every day and I know she'd be worried if she knew I was sick all the time. So, I made the first call to mom. Dad got the first call last time with Dylan's pregnancy so to keep it fair it was Mom's turn. She was shocked to say the least and I believe her response was "Don't even tell me..." when I told her I had something to tell her. Hmmm...so she didn't respond exactly how I had imagined...but I did understand her concerns. 4 kids is definitely not an easy load to bear on many levels. My dad was as sweet as could be. He said "that's going around" (regarding pregnancy) when I told him I was expecting...he's an old softy for his grandkids so I know he'll be the same with this one. Ok...so then we called a good number of family members on both sides. Everyone was wonderful in their support. Friends...well, I'm sorry if I didn't get to calling/emailing everyone. By this weekend I was just plum tuckered out on sharing the news and it's not always easy for me to have phone conversations with 3 kids running around. But, everyone has been great with their support, emails, phonecalls, etc. We are blessed.
Yes, we've had mixed emotions/reactions from people. Most think we're crazy to have 4 (especially you FL folk...to have 4 in FL is almost unheard of...MI folk are more welcoming with our news...to them having a half dozen is normal :)), but I've come to realize in the last couple years that we are destined for craziness so why not just add to it!? We wouldn't want this year to be dull would we?! And most people are sweet enough to say "if anyone can do it you guys can"...awww....well, we definitely need more of those positive thoughts...cuz I'm not sure how easy this is gonna be...though some moms of 4 or more have told me...if you can do 3 why not a few more?! It should be easy, right?! And just to clarify...#4 will be our finale!!! I know I said that about #3, so maybe it's not wise to put that out there right now...but really...this is IT for us! :) Put a fork in me, I'm done! :) (ok, no forks...but I am done!) :)
Ok...so what else. Oh...I guess I forgot about our current kids. Yes, we told them, but after we had told most of our family. I know that might sound mean, but since we found out on a "church night" we didn't want the kids spreading the news before our family had found out. So, we told them after church :) We taped us telling them too...it was pretty funny. We told them we were going to getting something new and made them guess what it was...we even hinted that it started with a B and ended with a Y. Ok...so that game didn't work. The kids were confused...they were guessing we were getting a new bathtub, etc....not the direction we were hoping they'd go. Finally we told them we're gonna have a new baby. I don't think any of them believed us. Hailey blurted out "you don't look fat yet, Mom" (umm, thanks for that Hailey! :))...and then she insisted we just did NOT have room for a baby and that someone was going to have to live in a closet or get a bunkbed :) She is our logical thinking/problem solver so she spent the rest of the night trying to fix that situation for us :) Shelby...well, she said, "I want a sister and I will name her Clara!" (after her Bitty Baby). Ok...easy enough...but when approached about another brother she was not so excited...finally she said that was ok too and we'd name him Fritz (yes, we are still on Nutcracker time over here in Steg land :)). And I won't tell you my thoughts on Fritz Stegs....though that is better than Jedediah Stegs :) (sorry, Kev :)). So, surprisingly Shelby has been very loving and angelic about the baby. We pray for him/her every day and to that Shelby again has to add..."it's going to be a girl??" and "I want to hold the baby now!" :) Dylan....well, he is our man of few words. But, that night we told the kids he and Hailey had a good ol' conversation after which he was yelling "BABY" and then Hailey insisted she and Dylan decided this baby must be a boy so we could even things up around here. Ok....so kids say the darnest things...they were so sweet in their reactions and I know they will all be great siblings to this new baby. And, wow...I never thought Dylan would be a Big Brother...that is amazing to me. How fun, since he does love babies...or should I say he loves to throw things at babies :)
Ok...so what else. Oh, yes...I will be 7 weeks tomorrow, we think. Due to my off cycle and the fact that I have no idea when I had my last period I just took a guess on my LMP...so Sept. 10 is my due date as of now. Of course, with my luck and my past pregnancies I will go over....so it might be closer to Oct. if I don't have anything to say about it....which leads me to my thought for the day....oh my I will be PG ALL summer long! :( I always made fun of pg women who had to do that cuz I had gotten so lucky thus far...I guess I jinxed myself there...and I won't even breath the word pregnancy bathing suit...oh, I just did....help me now, Lord...I was always hoping I'd never had to buy one of those! :) As for the rest of our baby stuff and maternity clothes...we're all good. I kept it all...not cuz we planned on having more, but b/c I thought for sure if I got rid of it all we'd end up pg right away...I guess that backfired on me too!?! :) But, at least we have everything!
We have our first doctor's appt tomorrow...it's really not a doc's appt cuz I think we only see the nurse/childbirth educator and the financial advisor...so not too exciting. I'm hoping that since my dates are unclear they might fit me in for a quick u/s where hopefully we can see that sweet heartbeat fluttering away. That always puts my mind at ease. So, if you think of us bright and early tomorrow say a prayer for me. I'm always nervous for that first appt where they look for the baby and the heartbeat. And while I'm thinking of it...just pray for me during the whole pregnancy. I'm normally a nervous pg person due to my past neonatal nursing days...I know all that can go wrong in utero and worry can sometimes plague my thoughts. I've vowed to put it in God's hands this time...and to enjoy this last pregnancy and be as worry-free as possible.
Symptoms...well, I've told you some of them. The whole heat thing...well, you'd think that'd be an awesome symptom on these subzero days, but to be honest I'm actually freezing all day then sweaty all night...it's not the most comfortable situation. I've never had this heat issue with pregnancy before...but then again I've never had a Sept baby...so maybe it's a weather thing. Also...a big difference with this baby...no constant peeing. With my others I knew I was pg cuz I was peeing all night long...not with this one. Same with my chest...doesn't hurt at all like with the others. I've had very mininal cramping too, which is weird for me. The spotting thing...this was a first for me during pregnancy. I guess it's semi-normal, but it's never been for me. Bloating/gas....ugh...it's been awful! You should see me at the end of every day....my stomach looks like I'm 6 mos pregnant. Gas is a bad thing....and that's not to say that I'm tooting all day long for all your toot-teasers out there! :) I am just very bloated. And the nausea. Well, unfortunately it started on Friday afternoon already...and this weekend it got pretty bad actually. There has been no "head in the toilet"...but I'm trying to stay busy and not focus on the nausea. For me having "all day sickness" is normal though...has been for all my pregnancies...it's best in the a.m. and by night time I'm at my worst. But, like my mom said yesterday....even though that part of pregnancy is rough...just try to keep in your head that this is your last pregnancy and to cherish it...good and bad :) Good advice, mom...and since I don't have my head in the toilet right now I'll agree with you! :)
Cravings...well, this should have clued me in right away that I was "with child"...I actually can't stand the thought of chocolate. That's not to say that I don't eat it right now (cuz I ate half a choc bar today already :))...but I really just want fruit and meat....weird, I know....I remember a few weeks ago when I should have been PMS'ing and instead of chocolate I wanted some beef...very weird for me who is not a meat person. And I can't stand the thought of water now...all I was is juice....or anything fruity for that matter :) Cravings are such a funny thing.
My figure: Well, it's gone out the door. Usually that's not an issue cuz it's good to feed that baby what it needs...but when you have a tight little red number you need to fit into for your brother's wedding in 7 weeks...well, it's no good to be a porker. Ugh! I tried the dress on this weekend and it's snuggedy snug already :( No good....I'm not sure what I'm gonna do as it has no room for a baby in it (maybe cut a hole in it and hold a big bouquet so no one will notice!?...what do you think, Candy?! :)). Maybe it would be a good thing if I was puking for the next 7 weeks....oh my...did I just say that?! That is gonna come back to bite me in the butt! Ok, but truthfully...I'm sporting a little tummy and I'm only 1 1/2 mos.
The gender question. Of course we are up for a boy or a girl...we have both so either is fine with us...no pressure there. You've heard the kid's opinions and, of course, daddy Kev in his economical thinking would like a boy so he doesn't have to pay for 3 weddings...can't blame him there! :) Me...I'm really torn. I love my girls and my boy...and I can't really say I'm leaning towards either. I feel it's a girl, but to be honest I have been wrong about ALL my kids so I really have no motherly intuition there. I have had some dreams before I knew I was pregnant and those did reveal a gender, but I am keeping that to myself cuz usually my dreams are correct! :) As far as finding out via ultrasound. Well, we've done it both ways...we knew with Shelby and not with the other two...and I'll be honest, while I'm not a surprise person usually, I really liked not knowing....I mean I enjoyed knowing with Shelby too...but I like being able to tell people what the baby is on delivery day. So, I guess I'm torn there. The practical mom in me thinks we need to know the gender so we can decide our housing/rooming situation...so you'll have to check back with me in April/May to see what we decide on that. Kev always wants to know the gender so I'm always the decider on that. As far as names...well, we never tell those...mostly cuz we never have them til delivery (and also cuz I don't like people's opinions on names)...we are bad name pickers...we constantly struggle with that...but you see what I'm dealing with here...a hubby who likes the name Jedidiah for goodness sakes!?
Ok....what else. So the big questions...what are we going to do about our small house and our massive amount of kids!?! Good question and we still haven't figured that out. There has been talk about finishing our basement and moving Hailey to a room down there temporarily...or even to the extreme of us moving and finding a better/semi-bigger house. I'll be honest and say I don't want to move now....not only am I pregnant and not feeling well, but there is little chance we could get this house ready to sell and find a new one and move...all in 7 1/2 mos. It's not really feasible. Plus I really like our location and our neighbors...and really don't feel that God wants us to move now. So, I think the plan now is to get our house/van problems fixed (yes, we still have problems with both)...then move onto finishing our basement. This is all still in the works and no decisions have been made...so we'll see how it goes. Either way...we need to make some changes and get more organized. We started this weekend with the kids' rooms clearing clothes out and organizing toys. We didn't get nearly what we'd hoped done, but every little bit helps. Thanks to Kev's parents who took pity on us our ever-growing family and took all 3 kids for 2 days! It was nice to sleep in and have some "quiet/alone" time! :) Kev even made me breakfast in bed! :) Awww...he's the BEST!
Well, as you can see I can certainly write a novel about all the thoughts and things that have occurred over the last few weeks. I must say I was so silly to think things were going to slow down this year. Is it just me or did I jinx myself into this pregnancy. I mean who names their blog stegfamilyoffive only to have that in need of changing a year later...apparently me! :) Go figure. And, yes, I will be working on a new blog name :)
Oh...and one downer bit of news due to baby #4....we will have to postpone our big 10th anniversary caribbean cruise :( This was most disappointing as it was scheduled for the end of August and obviously me being 2-3 weeks from delivery would not be ideal for that kind of vacation. We're still re-working that idea and trying to figure out when it will be most fun to go...non-pregnant or pregnant?? Hmmm....
Well, I just want to end with praise and thanks. Thanks to all your dear and wonderful friends and family who have been so supportive and uplifting with our unexpected news. It definitely wasn't in our (Kev and my) plan to be hearing the pitter patter of more Steg feet this year...but God had his plan all along and I know his plan for our family is a perfect and good plan...and that he knows best. I know I could easily worry how we will provide for our 4 children both now and in the future (and how much sanity we will need to do that :)), but I have full confidence that God will provide every step of the way and that he doesn't give us anything we can't handle. So, for any of you out there who worry about us or your own lives and mounds of children :)....let your heart be still...cuz my heart is at peace about it.
I love you all and thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support. I promise to keep you posted though I'll try not to bombard you with anymore LONG posts like this one! Yeah right! :) Hang in there and peace out from this bloated-bellied mama and the newest Steg baby :)