A better frame of mind

This will be brief, but just wanted to say how much I treasured each of you that commented and emailed me today :) 

You are all so wise and I love and appreciate what each of you have to say b/c you all know me so well.  I do plan to get help.  It's just taking those steps to get there.  I honestly just think I need to be forced to have some time for me...and maybe talking to some wise counsel will be my "me-time" :)  I think the hardest thing about all that I'm feeling lately is that I know I am not in a good frame of mind and it's affecting everything I do/say/think/feel.  I think I stink at mothering/wife-ing and just really enjoying life.  I feel my mind is a blurr for my baby whom I really want to enjoy.  I have no idea why my expectations of myself are so high and why I can't just "be still" when I really want to be.  I guess I need to get to the bottom of all this. 

I was down in the dumps last night...not really depressed, but more overwhelmed.  Today was slightly better.  My sweet hubby let me sleep in while he took on the morning routine.  Logan cooperated and slept too.  Ash crawled into bed and slept next to me. It was nice to not feel guilty about taking this little bit of "me" time.  Sleep helped, down time helped, shutting the brain off helped....but I know it has not solved the problem.   

Thank you, sweet friends and family for caring and offering your advice and support.  It matters more than you know especially when I'm feeling so down on myself :)